RE: *please don't read this word for word, i need to get it off my mind, again please don't read this and freak out afterward*

So i was just looking over that post from a few months ago......i just wanted to say 'thank you'....i can now pretty surely say the things that were plaguing my mind then are now a thing of the past, i don't find myself dwelling on them anymore, and i owe it all to you guys =] thank you for always being there, and now more than ever i know i have people like you guys who will always be there when/if the day comes when my world crumbles down....let's hope it doesn't get to that stage :p
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Things now aren't perfect, but they're pretty darn good, and i can't say i have complaints, becuz i don't! =] i can't wait for the day when all my wounds have completely healed, i no longer look at is as 'why? why me? how come all this is happening?' and things like that....nowadays i look back and see how much i've grown from everything, and wonder where would i be today if things hadn't had gone the way they did, and i hadn't learned the lessons i did.
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I hope that if ever in the future you guys need someone to talk to, you'll know that my ear is only a text, call, or i guess post? O.o away. =]

COMPLETELY NEW!!!

ok...so last time i posted that i had new music, well now i have ALL new music, so there are the new songs from last time, and brand new ones i just found. plus, if you didn't notice, my background is also new too =] well, yea just thought i'd let you know, check out the songs, they AWESOME!!!

new music!!!

on a much happier note from the last post....;P....i've put some new songs onto my playlist, but there's always those songs that i can't find on playlist, so it's not as much as what i wanted, but i figured, it's still better than the old one XD

*please don't read this word for word, i needed to get it off my mind, again please do not read this and freak out afterward*

Tears:
Why do we have them? What purpose do they serve? Is it a sign of weakness? Why is it that every time they accompany pain?...

What is this feeling that i have in my chest? Doesn't the saying go 'all wounds will heal with time'? Why aren't mine healing? Why do they keep rising up from deep in my heart? Why can't i get rid f this feeling? Why does it keep coming back to plague me? i just can't understand.....i don't understand.....why? Why is life like this? Every time when you think things are good, why do they have to take a turn for the worse? Why is life filled with ups and downs? Why does every fall have to hurt worse than the last? The wounds just seem to get deeper and deeper with every fall, while i just can't seem to get back up. Everything is stacking up, until eventually it all has to fall......when that time comes....will someone be there to save me?.....or is this all just a part of a never ending nightmare?
....i'll be fine, one day, all of the wounds will heal, and hopefully i'll finally be able to step forward....free from all of this....i just hope this day will come soon...