Why does growing up = so much work!

I now see why Peter Pan went to find Never Land, and when he got here why he didn't want to come back...
Growing up is SUCH a pain, I mean I love finally moving on, and starting a new chapter in life, but seriously what's up with ALL the paper work?!?!?! It kinda sucks! XP But I'm sure it'll all be worth it in the end....at least it better be!!

Future...too soon??...I think so

Wow. It seems like everything's coming up so fast! It's crazy to think within the next few weeks, we'll all be applying for college...then half our friends will be leaving for their missions...I wonder what things will be like then...*ponder* *ponder*

Oh for those of you that didn't already know, I made the choir :).

Life right now is good, everything is pretty much perfect, I couldn't ask for more. I can only ask that things continue to go as they have..even with my 18th bday coming up...it's tomorrow actually XP...I know it probably won't be that big of a deal, but still to think I'll technically be an adult...it makes it weird. :P Well, I guess we'll see how everything goes. *fingers crossed*

CrAzYnEsS!!!!!!!!!!!!

One word can describe my life right now....HECTIC!! I have so much dang stuff going on, with my schedule, classes and there fees, dance, orchestra, practice...it's like...AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! Lol it's not a bad thing, not in the tiniest bit, it's actually a good thing XP, but I am just admitting that I have a lot on my plate. Well it's senior year, and I wanted to go out with a BANG, and I guess I am! XD It's only the second week of school, but it feels like it's been months.....man, I really wonder if time's gonna start flying soon, or if it's gonna be this slow all year long! :P

Oh and just as a post/side note for those of you who didn't already know....I'm going to be trying out for choir tomorrow morning at 7 AM....I hope I make it...but gosh darn it I'm so dang nervous! O.O'<----that right there is a sweat mark XD

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Had a very interesting night...filled with a lot. The road ahead isn't an easy one...but it's one that I feel I can overcome with some time. I found some answers last night...but there still remains many unanswered. If I don't find them all, that's okay...all I need is to find the ones that really matter.

Sore+Running+ Workout+Dance =AWESOME!

Oh man!! Can I just say...it is sooo hard to run a mile and a quarter when your WHOLE body is already sore!! XD And it didn't end there, no we did another workout; including butts, more crunches, more squats, more push-ups, and more stretching...Oh my GOSH!! O.O' Man oh man...I'ma gonna be soooooo much more sore tomorrow...like probly like 10x's more XD. But it is sooo worth it!! The opening dance is AWESOME, and I'm gonna be so in shape by the time school comes around! I'm stoked!! :D Although every time I move something of my body hurts, it's a good thing, cuz I know that I'm working hard in practice and soon the results will come!! XD XD

First day back!

So dance this morning was one word...AWESOME!!! It was great to be dancing again, after such a long time. I'm not horribly out of shape, but I am not in great shape :P, I'll definitely be sore tomorrow, just depending to what extent. The opening dance is gonna be AMAZING!!!! I think a lot of people will like it...I know I do! XD

Coming Up

Summer is slowly coming to an end DX.....we've had some great times though! Still it seems like it was way too short....:(. Well once school starts we'll just have to keep hanging out! :P It's still so weird to think that we're seniors this year you guys!...It's so exciting, yet scary at the same time XD. Do you think a lot of things will be different?? I better have lunch with people this year...well me and Cam both...last year it was either with Shales or Kt, not saying I mind, you it's just funner with more people...and 3 isn't that many. Speaking of lunch I can't remember if I have money in my lunch account XD. But anyways...we're all getting so OLD! Despite whether or not you all want to accept that fact, it's going to come true eventually XP.

Alomst 9 & 1/2 hours later....

So after undergoing my first surgery ever...the numbness is still here!!! O.o' Normally I wouldn't mind it too much, but when it's your whole bottom lip, and it feels like it's the biggest thing on Earth..it bugs me XD. I got the feeling back in the other half of my tongue about 15 minutes ago...come one lip!! Haha

Harder Than You Think....

It is sooo much harder than one would think it is to find a good song to do a solo to...So I've made a list, checked it twice, and STILL don't know what song I want to use...I like two of them...A LOT the others are still up for consideration...anyone want to help me decide??? Any takers?? Any at all?? =P

Stupidity....

Oh my heck!!! I feel like the stupidest person on EARTH right now! DX I can't believe that I hit the 'reply' button....-.-'....why didn't I think to send it in a separate message...now they can all read it! DX DX DX I feel like and idiot, idiot, IDIOT!!! *sob* *sniffle* man...at least I don't know most of those people...but still they can read it...well at least it wasn't too personal...that's the last time I use names in anything...glad I didn't put last names too. DX Man! I'm never gonna get over this! Why didn't I think of a separate message earlier?? Why? Why? WHY!?!?!? grrrr!!!....*smacking self*....I feel sooooo stupid right now!! DX DX DX DX DX I seriously hope that no one reads that....please...PLEASE!!!....*on knees begging*

Summer's middle....what now??

Hm....well I'm sure that we're all sad when we think that summer is already half over...:( I have to say that I am STOKED for senior year! But at the same time I can't be more nervous for it...I wonder what kinds of things will happen... *ponder* But as of right now I do know that I still need to enroll in my online classes...I'm thinking I'm gonna take financial lit first, then maybe even take my CTE during the school year...just depending how long it takes me to get myself to finish fin. lit. XD. One thing for sure though, is that I have to start studying for the next ACT (sept. 11) O_O'

Well yeah that's what I'm doing at the middle of summer...WAY fun huh? XP.... just kiddin.

Side blog post....

This is the first post where I am truly telling/sharing how I am feeling...so yes it is VERY different from all the other posts.

Don't freak out, or over react when/if you read it...other wise I won't be posting those anymore, meaning I won't post anymore about my feelings whether they be happy or sad...

It is also very clearly stated that I do NOT know what is the cause of my feelings/emotions, so please don't jump to the conclusion that it's something you or someone else did for that matter...because it is NOT. I can very honestly say that no one has done anything remotely close to hurt me.

***SO AGAIN PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE DO NOT OVER REACT, AND DO NOT ASSUME IT WAS CAUSED BY ANYONE.***

Missing....

*sigh* I can't believe how hard it is to miss someone...:( But thankfully we have this thing called 'technology' and 'cellphones' and 'texting/calling' that allow us to keep in touch with people. :) Missing someone definitely shows you how much they mean to you...not that I took them for granted when they were here O.o. Just not having them here really makes that feeling of how important they are sink in...and how big a role they play in your life. But it's ok, no matter how much you miss a person, they'll always be with you, no matter where you go, because you'll have them in your memories forever. Always be thankful for who you have in your lives. :)

SuMmEr FuN!!!

*sigh* despite the days when you have nothing to do, and all you're friends are busy, you gotta love the days when you can get together and have a blast! :D

Same old Mondays....BORING!

Despite the fact of not having school anymore, this second Monday of summer is still boring and lame. Last week we were partying it up for eric's bday...but who's bday is today?? No one's....at least not anyone that I know of XD. *sigh* Even in the midst of having such a great summer, I guess there are days when the fun must take a break...right? WRONG!! Why should it!?!?! O.o haha jk I guess it's a good thing, cuz everytime I'm bored, I just go and workout XD, now there's a good way to get fit! ;D

B-day party....for eric!!

*sigh* dang, I'm excited for eric's bday plans.....keke I hope they go well, which I'm sure they will :D. Anyone else joining in my excitement?? Plus it makes things so much better that it's a Monday, cuz usually people don't like Mondays much....becuz of school and all, but not this Monday!! :D haha yea, if you haven't grasped it yet, I'm excited....and when I get excited I tend to blab on-and on-and on XD....ok. I'll stop now.

Side blog: definition

So the reason and purpose of my 'side' blog is for me to post any thoughts/quotes that I think of...

Some of the things on that page might not make much sense to all of you...and I don't expect you to understand it all, these posts are products of my thinking and I guess can be considered 'deep' thoughts.

Some of the posts will be just random things that I think up that I think are creative and worth posting, while some will be posted because of my mood/emotions, though these will not be specified.

You do not have to read them, nor do you have to pay any attention to them, they are just there...if you feel like you want some mental inspiration or just something to think on feel free to read.

Feel free to leave comments as to what you think/thought of the post, what it meant to you etc.

Life is GooD!!!

Nowadays, my schedule is HECTIC!!!!! But even so, I'm enjoying life, even if I'm cranky & sleepy in class XD. All the past wounds have healed, and few have truly left scars, but as we live life we face new challenges and receive new wounds. I just hope that as I deal with these new problems, I can walk away with as few injuries as possible. But moving on from that depressing topic, school's almost OVER!!!!!! :D Senior year is almost here!!!!! But before I can reach that glorious finish line, I have to push through a few more difficulties.....eh-hem practices and tests, and so on ><. But at the end of the year I know I'll have a sense of accomplishment to be proud of! :D These past few weeks have been a blast, now let's just keep that momentum going all the way to the end of the year!!! :D

RE: *please don't read this word for word, i need to get it off my mind, again please don't read this and freak out afterward*

So i was just looking over that post from a few months ago......i just wanted to say 'thank you'....i can now pretty surely say the things that were plaguing my mind then are now a thing of the past, i don't find myself dwelling on them anymore, and i owe it all to you guys =] thank you for always being there, and now more than ever i know i have people like you guys who will always be there when/if the day comes when my world crumbles down....let's hope it doesn't get to that stage :p
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Things now aren't perfect, but they're pretty darn good, and i can't say i have complaints, becuz i don't! =] i can't wait for the day when all my wounds have completely healed, i no longer look at is as 'why? why me? how come all this is happening?' and things like that....nowadays i look back and see how much i've grown from everything, and wonder where would i be today if things hadn't had gone the way they did, and i hadn't learned the lessons i did.
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I hope that if ever in the future you guys need someone to talk to, you'll know that my ear is only a text, call, or i guess post? O.o away. =]

COMPLETELY NEW!!!

ok...so last time i posted that i had new music, well now i have ALL new music, so there are the new songs from last time, and brand new ones i just found. plus, if you didn't notice, my background is also new too =] well, yea just thought i'd let you know, check out the songs, they AWESOME!!!

new music!!!

on a much happier note from the last post....;P....i've put some new songs onto my playlist, but there's always those songs that i can't find on playlist, so it's not as much as what i wanted, but i figured, it's still better than the old one XD